Tuesday, March 23, 2010
what does your occassional good nite SMS-es means? what does your sweet nothings mean? nothing.
sending me all these just to let me know that i'm in your thoughts or what? you always do the same shit when i voice it out to you.
you asked me to call you, and you didn't pick up the calls. and you called me back hours later, wth?!
yes, i was real worried when your asthma came back that week.. i understand. i didn't complain or anything. and then? you're back to your busy schedule, doing on-site and paperwork. putting me aside already. thanks leh...
i felt bad missing your call last night when i was half asleep. i remember hearing that once familiar ringtone ringing, but... somehow i just didnt roll over to the other side of the bed to pick it up. i'm still feeling bad at this instant, and i know it's not worth it, at all. arghh!
i want to talk to you badly at times, when i ain't feeling good but... sigh. forget it, bahhhh!
i should just go and sleep, instead of staying up and wait for you to finish your work.
good nite!
1:40 AM
Sunday, March 07, 2010
this song has been replaying over and over again on my iPhone.. and there's so many thoughts running in my mind meanwhile.. =/
黄品冠 - 我以为
你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为 只是我以为
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却输得那呢绝望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
what is my purpose in life?
i don't know what i want in my life anymore.
i'm at a crossroad, decisions has to be made, and those who know me knows that i dread making decisions.
there's so many regrets i have in the past, maybe i should have left here 4 years ago. i would have had a very different life from now. i might be in melbourne now, with my other friends there.
can anyone please enlighten me and show me the path i should go? :(
blogged from my Blackberry.
2:27 PM
