Sunday, May 28, 2006
假装's on my playing list for the past few days, played over and over again. i don't know why, but somehow, it explains my feelings. sometimes i'll wake up feeling lost, i don't know what to do, i don't know how to make myself feel better.
:/but on the brighter side, kenneth came to fetch me for dinner yesterday!
:D went to had prata at thomson for dinner
=x hees. da prata's great! and da ride to the whatever reservoir which has so many turns is great too!
:) home sweet home after dat
:)and he came to fetch me for breakfast today again!
:) hehs. was craving for mac breakfast ever since dunno when. lols! and i had hotcakes wif sausage meal. omg. it's heavenly!
*slurps!* enjoyed every bit of it.
:) took so long to reach pandan loop from woodlands! lols. woots. 2 outta my crave list. when is my dim sum and bak kut teh coming? hahhas.
=x okay, and i was caught in the rain 2 times. having flu and headache now. damnn. hopefully i'll be able to work tml
>.< i really
want need the money
:( unless someone's willing to sponsor me!
:P假装多好 我只要
只想要 再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待
心甘情愿不想逃
假装多好 依然是
依然是 暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
yes, i'm
dumb enough to jump into the hole in front of me, even when i know there's no hope of surviving.
:)
10:14 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
met huai ren today to get from him the ACCA brochures he got for me. thanks
:) its somehow weird. or rather, i felt weird. it's the first time we ain't really talking, and hongwei just left your office, sensing something's not right.
:/ i followed, without telling you.
and then, we're on the same bus, same destination. and worst of all, i sat beside you. how dumb can i be? we started discussing about ACCA, and you told me you ain't taking it anymore.
:( anyways, you fell asleep after that. do you know that i so wanna take off your specs for you? i'm so used to doing it in the past.
:) but i didnt, coz i know we're ain't the same anymore.
i woke you up. and you were so cute. haha.
:) i walked fast, with you behind. i didn't wanna say "goodbye" to you. it's not because i'm afraid that it's gonna be the last one, but somehow i know my tears will roll down if i say out that word. don't ask me why.
:( i cant help it, but having mixed feelings. memories overflowing me.
met up wif jain later.. and i felt much better
:) had dinner at LJS and we walked to lucky plaza. and then, far east plaza. walked around. and chatted alot. went kino after that, and we bought comics.
:D sat at the fountain with her on the phone, and me reading the comics.
:) walked to somerset mrt, and we chatted more. and its home sweet home after dat.
:)passed by amk mrt. and i thought of
you again. damnn. i cant help it.
:( i'm reminded of the times we shared together, no matter where is it. be it on the cab, or in the office. with tears welling in my eyes, i held it back. no matter how much tears i've shed, nothing is gonna change. we will still be friends as promised,
forever.
i'll walk out of this box one day, just gimme some time.
[edited at 3.20pm]
it's the second saturday that is not spent with
you. somehow i just feel weird about it. maybe i'm used to it already? i don't know. as i've said, i gotta get used to it. it's not that i want to, but i have to. my heart has been raining, for the past few days. when will it ever
stop?
1:00 AM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
hees. i'm happie happie!
=x i got a bottle of herbal tea from someone.
you.
thanks. you noe how i'd feel when i see you, that's why you took the effort to reach the company before my bus reach. and to top it all, you took cab down.
:) there's more than a million thanks i wanna say.
:Dwork's boring recently. dad's been nagging me to get brochures from SIM. arghh! he's so keen on sending me overseas!
*pouts* i dun want
:( my everything is here. my besties, my loves, my family, and my friends. i can't bear to leave singapore for so long. i'm so gonna persuade him.
x)pls pray that i'd still be in singapore for the next few months.
:)
6:59 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
was supposed to meet kannan for dinner last friday but he met wif an accident!
:( hope he's alright!
:) went to dacia's house instead. hehs.
:D been few months since we last met! and damnn her house is gorgeous. her mum is still as friendly as ever.. lols! her mum is a good cook! (dacia, show ur mum this!
:P) hees. dacia drove me to JP later to catch "over the hedge" great show! hammy is just so adorable!
>.<bought jolin's album on saturday and my day is spent listening to her album
=x didnt went to fetch jain as her mzy is there
:P on top of dat, i was in my dad's office helping out da whole morning
T_Tmet kenneth for lunch + movie yesterdae.. watched "the da vinci code" its either u lurve it, or u hate it.
:) and actually, i do lurve it!
:D hehs.. met jain in town after dat.. had dinner at shih lin again! hahhas.. oyster mee sua + sausage cheese egg crepe.
*delicious!* walked around and crapped around. there's always no lack of topics between us!
:) and we took neoprints! yayy! hahhas.. da last one was like.. last year?!
=\ and yeaps.. prob i'm joining for clubbing next wednesday and go for work as usual on thursday.
>.< shall see how
=Plet da pics talk now.. i'm tired
=x
took this when jain's busy cutting the neoprints
:P
take 1 wif her! after her HK trip
x)
we do not need a reason to take another shot, do we?
:)
took this to end the day.
=x
work is bored, and thus i had to entertain myself with this!
:Dps: saw huai ren todae. we chatted. he wasn't in a good mood. and his reason was, me. i didn't do anything wrong, did i? in fact, i didnt do a single thing. sighs. a part of me yearned to see you, but the other part of me doesnt, because my heart simply shattered the moment i see you. damnn. i seriously pray that we won't regret, at any point of time. we're both selfish.
10:09 PM
Monday, May 22, 2006
skipped work today! hehs. been like working from monday to friday every week. booo its boring
=x anyways.. went to da doc's and got a MC. hahas. felt better now already
:) thanks to those besties and frens of mine!
:D hees. though yar, at times i'll be like, kinda sad when i'm reminded of the past, but hey i gotta look forward right?
:) no worries!
called huai ren just now to ask for da extension of my colleague's, and he started to question me y i'm absent from work. lols. i sound like a convict. hahhas. but he scolded me when i say i'm not feeling well and yet i'm going out.
:( boooooo. and he started nagging and nagging.
=/ anyways, at least he cared, right?
:) chatted alot and i'm rather happie dat we're back to the past. as in, we're bickering every now and then again. hahas. FUN! hope we'll remain like dat.
:)okay, i'm late. gotta rush to meet kenneth for lunch and jain for dinner! busy busy todae!
=P-off-
12:54 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006
boooo.
:( we're back to square 1. frens we shall be, forever.
u promised to be my guardian angel too.
u'd catch me if i fall.
and cheer me up whenever u can.
i hope i won't get to regret, this decision of ours.
probably we're just not compatible.
the memories we once shared, will always be kept in a safe place;
somewhere.
and you'll always be the special someone i'll turn to when i need someone.
and definitely, i'll miss the times we had together.
though it's just a short 20 days altogether after we got closer, it's more den enuff i guess.
:)there's so many first times wif you (dont get da wrong idea)
- first time staying over for more den 1 night other den chalets
- first time getting involve wif someone in da same company
._.- first time sms-ing da whole day without stopping
- first time chatting more den work during office hours
- first time eating butterfly prawns, salmon, and hash brown wif lotsa chilli sauce and pepper.
- first time having 3 meals wif a person, other den my family
i'll definitely miss the times being with you
:) the bickers, the so-called quarrels, the meals, the hugs, the assurance, and most importantly, your
presence.
i'll also miss the many nicknames you called me: marshmallow, silly (sha gua), xiao zhu, gerger.
we won't be the same anymore
>.<frens; nothing more, nothing less.
guardian angel; for now and forever.
=Dthis shall be my last time signing off as marshmallow.
signing off,
silly marshmallow.
11:51 PM
Thursday, May 18, 2006
met up wif yiyi and bestie jsut now!
hees
had dinner at long john silver. and den to da cinema!
watched "poisedon"
and dammn. it was great!
i wanna watch it again
=xcall me crazy. lols!
slacked at mac to chat.
and my day ended.
siighs. i dunno how i shld feel. dilemma dilemma dilemma. damnn.
shld we proceed on? or hold back?
its been occupying my mind, for days.
having headaches already.
and there you are, in a dilemma too.
damnn.
when is it gonna end?
if it's gonna continue, i'm gonna get outta this.
dun wanna be in da middle of this kinda shit.
but can i do it? can i bear to?
=/sighs.
how i wished i could confide in you, and asked you what to do.
but, we're in the same situation now.
how i wished, these thought hadn't crossed our minds.
and we're still the same as before.
i miss the days when we're together, for more than 12 hours a day.
i miss the times when we're fighting over the tv controller, you wanna watch the mtvs but i wanna watch the anime. and you gave in to me everytime.
i miss you buying meals for me, be it breakfast, lunch or dinner. because you don't wanna see me having gastric.
i miss the times when you force me to try food which i've not tried before, like.. salmon, hash brown wif lotsa chilli and pepper, butterfly prawns and etc.
i miss the times when we bicker, and you'll let me win somehow.
i miss the times when you'll tell me anything, just to cheer me up.
i miss the hug you gave me, especially when i couldn't control my tears. you were there to assure me.
and lastly, i miss the times chatting in yak with you during office hour, when we're suppose to be doing our work.
:)be my guardian angel, for now and forever. <3
11:49 PM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
gahhh! i'm lazy to type
T_T let da pics talk bahs!
=D
besties dun have reasons to take pics together
=)
bought dis adidas pink bag weeks ago.
<3 it!
hugged dis to bed every nite. my last gift from cy.
:)
got dis jie lian huan weeks ago too. jain and me, took out da rings together.
<3
work is piling up. i'm suffocating.
x_X
*pouts*
=)
this ain't any normal meiji apollo chocolates. because it's given by
you. it pepped me up whole day long when you're on a half day leave!
:)
bored at work results in jinling snapping herself in office.
some random shots taken.
yayy~ jain's coming back dis sat!
x) hees.
*happie happie!* meeting my bestie and yiyi tml!
*double happie!* meeting up wif huai ren nxt wk for movie!
*triple happie!* and and and! meeting mad in june for mac breakfast!
*quadruple happie?!* =xthere's so many movies out dis month. damnn. my $$ gonna spend on movies and movies and movies
=/ i need sponsorship!
*whines*thanks for the assurance time and again, thanks for the hugs which made me feel better. i just realised that i'm so weak inside. you're the only one who has seen the weakest me.
=/ i really do appreciate that.
<3 there's so many i wanna thank you about, but i'm at a loss of words, suddenly.
:(signing off,
silly marshmallow.
10:33 PM
Monday, May 15, 2006
life's great wif
you around.
work's fun wif
you around.
:)i dont know how we should describe our r/s now.
but its definitely more than frens, not yet a couple.
:Dsweet dreams to me, and especially,
you.
tomorrow will be a better day, cheer up!
x)
10:42 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
*happie happie!* am just home for abt 45 mins onlie. home sweet home.
<3 long weekend is well-spent!
:)okay. back to friday, went over to odelia's wif da usual peeps, qiuhui, apple, april, huiping, soh and hongwei. mui hong joined us during da bbq onlie. damn lotsa events, from billard, to tennis, and den jacuzzi, and finally bbq. had lotsa otahs left and we gotta dabao some home
:D left there at abt 8 as all of us had something on later, and we took train together! chatted damn lots wif huiping and damnn i miss her. how i wished she wasn't just a temp in hoya onlie. but..
:/okayy.. and i took a cab down to fren's place again. missed half of my 9pm show. *(&$%$%@y"^. watched scv after dat. movies after movies, variety shows after variety shows. slept late.
fren went to dabao vegetarian bee hoon for breakfast. luurve it
<3. slacked around and i fell asleep again. woke up at 3pm, washed up and cabbed down to junction 8 for lunch. decided to dabao back again. MOS meals + butterfly prawns, fren's fav chocolates, and my fav meiji apollo chocolate. its fren's treat again
>.< cabbed back to enjoy lunch.
:)slacked around and laughed damn lots. received kannan's call to ask me down to bugis for pwh's outing. actually i sms-ed chris and mad earlier on but i guess kannan dunno? and beta's there btw.
:) i gave this outing a miss not because of him, but because i'm actually darn tired and i wanna catch my last episode.
:( i guess they'll still enjoy da outing even without me
:) sorry peeps! will date da few of u out another dae. promise.
:) caught my last episode of 9pm show again. damnn. i fell asleep when fren switched channel during the commercial break. boooooo.
:( woke up at 7am todae!
><" fren had to work todae. fren sent me home by cab, and den to work. thanks.
<3.
oh yea~ and i received call + sms from jain!
:D glad she's having fun there but worrying abt me? girl, thanks. enjoy urself there!
:) i noe u lurve HK. lols! shopp more alrights! i shall save up and we'll go there TOGETHER. shop till we drop.
:) <3.
8:45 AM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
tears were shed for da past few days. dat shall be da last time i'm shedding tears for him.
=) i'm a strong girl, okies? i shall be. hehs. for your sake. i'm refering to my frens!
=P stop worrying abt me. i'm okay, really.
=Dokay. huai ren cheered me up damn lots! hahhas. he damn funnie lar. tell me all da stupid things
=/ anyway, at least huai ren planted a smile on my face lar. hahhas. so glad dat i gotta noe dis piggie-ish fren in hoya.
=)wont be home tml, or maybe even sat nite. will be at odelia's place again, for a mini bbq. just da few of us
=) its so sweet of dem
<3okay. i'm really lazy to resize photos.
=\ lets wait till i'm reallie free! HAHAHAA!
=xand and and! i just got my e360 yesterday! wheee~ luurve it!
=D flip fone flip fone!
*jumPs ard*
11:31 PM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
just wanna blog about this. we've ended. yes. we.
me and him, beta. a total of 6 months and 19 days.
=) we ended dis r/s nicely. none of us was really sad or what, but actually deep down inside, i'm a little hurt. but its okay, coz i guess, remaining as bestie is a betta way out for us
=) we'll still be frens, and be there for each other.
i'm back to
single.
=) maybe unavailable? i dunno.. hehs. shheeessh~!
9:15 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
had a fun day yesterdae! wif less den an hour of sleep
T_T i cant get to sleep. damnn. thanks fren for accompanying me
=) took a cab down and we watched "son of the mask"
=) after dat, tried to sleep. cant get to sleep and so we chatted. i was hungry and i whined for a big breakfast. fren called and da breakfast came. watched replay of "superband" while eating big breakfast. sweet!
=)watched some scv shows and mtvs on and off.. tried to sleep at times too, but was waken up by calls after calls.
=/ tried to wake fren up as voting is needed. oh man i had a terrible time waking fren up, from 1 pm to 3pm.
=/ =/ =/ fren went to vote and bought lunchiie up for me! yummy! slacked around chatting again and finally i gotta leave at 6pm. fren dialled for a cab before dat, and i hopped onto it. dat ends my day.. and i finally KO-ed at 8pm++ last nite
=)ps: fren wanna be known as fren in my blog
=) thus, i'm not gonna mention who is fren by all means
=Dmet up wif my bestie on friday!
=D had MOS for dinner and we walked around.. updated each other.. lols! and yeaa we had a great time taking pics and neoprints!
xD she's becoming so pretty but i'm still da same
T_T booooo. chatted at da mrt station for half an hour
=D pei-ed her to cck and den back alone to marsiling alone! i'm a good bestie alrites!
x) hees. ended my day laughing away in vs wif mad and chris.. lols! shall post pics tonite. gotta rush to dad's office now! ja~
10:12 AM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
met up wif my jain todae!
=D yayy! but it might be da last meeting before she's flying off
=( but heh! nvm~ we shall meet up very soon after she's back, yea?
=)da usual dinner, and gai gai-ing. i'll miss her presence damn much,
<3. there wun be anyone to pei me eat dinner and walk ard orchard and chat any topics again
>.< until u're back
=D so be back soon alrites?
xDoh damnn. i'm hooked onto dis song: 沉默玩具. all thanks to huai ren who kept singing dis song da whole dae long.
=\ but i realised, its actually a nice song
=) but probably i'd still prefer superwoman more
=)
11:21 PM
Monday, May 01, 2006
just reached home abt an hr ago. was out wif huai ren
=)waited for damn long lar. dis idiot pig. took so long to get himself outta da hse
-.- anyways.. went to sakae for dinner! and it amounts up to more den 50
=/ and huai ren forced me to eat salmon skin roll and ermm.. salmon wif wasabi?! omgs. i dun touch these in da past. and da stupid pig asked me to eat. dammit.
anyways.. went to watch "the sentinel" after dat.. dat dumb pig told me it ain't cold in da cinema and end up its damnn cold lar. idiot. hai wo de teeth keep clatter.
=/but at least, he made it up by sending me home by cab
=) thanks dude.
meeting up wif jain tml again! wheee~
=Dand to end everything, i miss my girls
=( bestie! ask me out soon!
>.<
10:56 PM
